God is Good!

Sometimes I receive the clearest revelation when I am in the shower...I don't know why, maybe because there are basically no distractions and I am usually singing hymns...yes I do sing in the shower...don't judge :) Any-who. . . Last night when I was in the shower I was thinking about how good God had been to me that day, seeing all the things that he helped me with (homework especially and being generally productive) and I just realized that God has always been good to me. Always. And, if He always HAS been good to me, then He always WILL be good to me. Just a nice reminder that I can trust God. He has always been trustworthy, so even though it is hard sometimes, I can trust Him now and I will always be able to trust Him!

How to be Filled

You know that feeling, where you feel kind of empty inside? A kind of loneliness that doesn't really go away, but it isn't REALLY loneliness because you can feel it even when you are surrounded by the ones you love the most? Where there is a place that you want to be filled but isn't? You try to fill it with more social activity or more study, or any manner of things, but it just doesn't quite work? Well sometimes I feel that way, and sometimes there are times when that part of me is completely filled and I am simply happy. A inner happiness that does fill that part of you.

Recently in my Book of Mormon class we have been studying how the Book of Mormon teaches the Doctrine of Christ, namely Faith, Repentance, Baptism, partaking of the Sacrament, Receiving the Gift of the Holy Ghost, and Enduring to the End.  As I have been doing the reading I have noticed something that I absolutely love about the scriptures relating to these different parts of the Doctrine of Christ. What I love is the word 'fill'. In so many scriptures it talks about how these simple principles and ordinances will FILL you, for example . . .

Alma 36:20 "And oh, what joy, and what marvelous light I did behold; yea, my soul was filled with joy as exceeding as was my pain!" This is what Alma described feeling after he had excercized faith and repented.

and...

3 Nephi 19:13 "And it came to pass when they were all baptized and had come up out of the water, the Holy Ghost did fall upon them, and they were filled with the Holy Ghost and with fire." ***

I love the fact that there is a part of me that is just waiting to be filled by the Holy Ghost, that I can literally have a member of the Godhead with me at ALL times. I know that by striving to adhere to the simple teachings of Jesus Christ and growing in our faith in him, we will be filled. We don't have to be empty or lonely and having the gentle influence of the Holy Ghost filling us makes everything more bearable. I love my Savior Jesus Christ and I am so grateful that he inspired so many of his Prophets in the Book of Mormon to teach His simple truths so that we may have a more perfect fullness of joy in life.

*** for more scriptures about being filled through the Gospel of Jesus Christ see...

3 Nephi 18:9
Alma 29:10
Alma 19:30
3 Nephi 26:17
3 Nephi 12:6
3 Nephi 20:9
Moroni 8:17
Mosiah 21:28

The Atonement

My mind has been on the Atonement of Jesus Christ a lot recently. It seems everywhere I go I am hearing all about the Atonement. I have had Relief Society lessons, Religion Class lessons, English spiritual thoughts (3 of these have been focused solely on Alma 7:11-13), My cousin's blogpost about the Atonement working in her life, and even more. This really shouldn't surprise me because as Joseph Smith said... 

"The fundamental principles of our religion are the testimony of the Apostles and Prophets, concerning Jesus Christ, that He died, was buried, and rose again the third day, and ascended into heaven; and all other things which pertain to our religion are only appendages to it."

The Atonement truly is at the center of our religion, without it we wouldn't have a religion to begin with. We would be lost forever, becoming angels to a devil (2 Nephi 9:9) and with no incentive to make good choices. 

Recently the thought that has been weighing most on my mind is in regards to the "Infinite" aspect of the Atonement. Why that aspect do you ask? Well, let me tell you. Once upon a time while I was on my mission we had a lesson set up with a potential investigator. He was somebody that previous missionaries had talked to but hadn't taught, so we thought we would introduce ourselves and see if he was interested in learning more. When we got to his house he was very friendly and welcoming. He was very strong in his faith, but liked to talk about religion. We had a nice conversation for the most part, but something that he talked to us about really bothered me. It was something that I disagreed with very strongly but never had the opportunity to discuss in more detail. He said something along the lines of . . .

Christ only suffered for the people that he knew would repent and accept his sacrifice. 

I know those weren't his exact words, but that was the gist of his belief. In my heart I immediately disagreed but I didn't feel like I could articulate my thoughts and beliefs clearly enough and didn't wan't to end up bible bashing so my companion and I didn't say much on that score, but it has stuck with me ever since. 

God loves all of his children, there is no one that has ever lived, that will ever live, or that lives now that is not loved by God. He sent His Son to this world to suffer and die because he loves his children. In Doctrine and Covenants 19:16 it says "For behold, I, God, have suffered these things for all, that they might not suffer if they would repent;" Christ came to atone for the sins of ALL mankind. His Atonement is not just infinite in that it covers each of our individual sins and weaknesses and trials and burdens and sicknesses and temptations, it covers ALL of that for EVERY individual that ever has, does, or will exist. I just can't believe that a God who is all loving would provide a way for only those who would accept his son. It is such an important thing in understanding the character of Christ to know that he suffered even for those that would reject him, because otherwise they would be doomed. They would never have a chance and I know that God would never do that to even one of His children. To believe that Christ didn't suffer for all is to believe that God doesn't love all His children and that Christ's atonement is not infinite. 

I am so grateful for the knowledge that I have and that has been strengthened by this study that God does love each and every one of us and that Christ's atonement really can and does radiate its glorious light into ALL.

Alma 34:14 "And behold, this is the whole meaning of the law, every whit pointing to that great and last sacrifice; and that great and last sacrifice will be the Son of God, yea, infinite and eternal."

Even When We Are Doing Well...

So . . . for those of you who don't know, I moved up to BYU-Idaho for school a couple of weeks ago and I have been getting used to life up here. It is very different going from a non-church school to a church school, but not in a bad way.

When I graduated from High School, there was no way under the sun that I was going to go to a church school, especially not BYU-Idaho. I didn't want to have an Honor Code. (silly me . . . ) Somehow I thought it would limit my agency. Not that I did anything terrible or horrible when I went to Utah State, I still lived gospel standards, and basically lived the honor code anyways, but I didn't want it forced on me.

Now that I am here, I realize how silly that is. I still live the standards I always have and it is really cool to pray in class and have spiritual thoughts etc. It is a beautiful environment where you really can feel the spirit so much, although it does sometimes lead to awkward/cool experiences.

Yesterday I had a really good day. The week before had been really stressful. I have smaller classes here than I did at Utah State and that basically means more homework that I actually have to turn in. Yes, I know that I am sometimes a little bit of a slacker...okay, maybe more than a little bit when it comes to homework. Anyways, I was super stressed about all of my classes and all the homework that I had to do. Yesterday morning after my calculus class I was sure that I was going to fail. I was already behind in some of my classes and I didn't know how I was going to be able to catch up. So, as I was doing homework for a certain class the thought came to me, "I can drop this class". So much peace came over me that I knew it would be okay if I dropped a class.  (but to be sure I had to call my sister and have her validate my decision. Thanks Julie!) So I dropped my class and suddenly life seemed manageable again. It was wonderful! My day was going great!

After my last class that day, I stopped on my way home to enjoy the good weather (while I can) to sit and read. As I was reading I heard a man singing. He came around the corner of the building by the table I was sitting singing "Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing" at the top of his lungs. He saw me, stopped singing, and apologized. I smiled and said, "No worries, you're fine!"  waved and went back to reading. He continued walking and singing, and I didn't think more about it. . . . Until he came back.

I was reading when I noticed him walking back towards me, he introduced himself, sat down, and asked if I was doing okay. I said "Yep! I am doing great!"

He said, "Oh, well, I don't usually do this, but what is your favorite hymn?"

"I like 'Lead Kindly Light'"

"Would it be alright if I sing it for you?"

"umm...Sure..."

He then proceeded to sing to me. To tell you the truth I was kind of embarrassed and it was awkward, people were walking by and this random man was singing to me. He finished singing for me and then asked if he could say a prayer for me. I again, said sure, feeling kind of awkward. He prayed for me and then got up and left...and then I proceeded to read again and I just kind of laughed thinking to myself how that was weird.

When I went home I told my roommates and they kind of laughed with me and I called my sister-in-law this morning and told her and we laughed a little about it. I commented and said that now I know how the random people on the street I talked to as a missionary and prayed for felt.

Anyways . . . fast forward to this afternoon. I was sitting in devotional and I realized how, this young man was simply acting on his prompting. He felt like he needed to come and make sure I was okay, sing a hymn, and pray for me. He was acting on his faith. It made me think about all my tender mercies. Usually when I recognize them I am having a bad day,something is hard, or annoying, but God's tender mercies aren't just for when we are down. God is ALWAYS there, showing his love for us. He shows us he is there when we are having good days, doing fun things, and enjoying life. I am grateful for this young man's dedication to his prompting and for reminding me that God is blessing me all the time, not just when I am down.

And just for kicks and giggles, here is a picture of a happy sun wall hanging and a pretty flower :)

I'm Back!

I have been thinking a lot about posting on this blog again. . . I have so much to be grateful for and have been so blessed that I feel like I should be posting on here. So . . . here goes nothing!

Last week I at dinner my nephew was eating with us. As is common with most little kids...he can sometimes be picky and be a little bit of a pill. An adorable pill . . . :)  At dinner my nephew did NOT want to eat whatever it was that my mom had made, no matter what I, his mom, my mom, or anyone else said. His argument?

"I ate lunch earlier!! I don't need to eat it." 

Such a sad face...

This struck me and have thought a lot about it. Those of us sitting around the table heard how silly his argument was. Yes you ate earlier, but you need to keep eating regularly otherwise you will get sick and eventually die. It was a little bit funny at the time, but as I kept thinking about it, I realized how often I do that same thing in a different context. 

How often do I say to myself...'I don't really need to read my scriptures' or, more likely for me, 'it's okay if I just read a little bit and skim though my scriptures tonight. I had a really good study yesterday/I will have a really good study tomorrow'. That was my attitude so often before my mission. Thankfully since my mission I have been better at my studies, but I still catch myself saying this to myself sometimes.

Just like it isn't enough to only eat food once and still be healthy, you can't neglect your scripture study and still be healthy spiritually. We are commanded to "feast upon the words of Christ" and I know that I always feel better about myself when I do.

The scriptures have been such a blessing in my life always, but especially since I have been home from my mission. I never used to believe people when they said this, because, as I said, I wasn't very good at consistent scripture study before my mission. . .  but I really CAN tell a visible difference in my day when I choose to read and feast upon the words of Christ in the scriptures vs. when I choose not to. I go to work and am happy and have a smile that comes easily when I read my scriptures. 

I love the scriptures...have you felt the scriptures make a difference in your life? If not...give it a try like I did. I promise that you will see a difference as soon as you start. 

13 Blessings

    Some people think that 13 is a very unlucky number...but for me it is a VERY lucky number! It's the number of companions I have had over the course of my mission. I have been so blessed to work with and learn from each and every person I have been blessed to spend 24/7 with from a period of 2 weeks to 12 weeks. 

Sister Jorgensen will forever be my first companion! When I arrived at the MTC her name was on my little packet and I thought the name 'Victoria Jorgensen' sounded pretty cool and she fit her name wonderfully. I learned so much faith and gratitude from her that set the tone for my mission.

Oh, Sister Lee and Sister McKee! When I arrived in the mission field and President Riggs announced that Sister Call would be trained by, Sister Lee and Sister McKee...I never dreamed I would be in a Trio...Sister Lee was my companion for just 2 weeks before she left to go back to Temple Square in Salt Lake City but she really impressed upon my mind the importance of the sacred call that was mine as a missionary.

When Sister Lee left, It was just Sister McKee and I for the next 10 weeks. Sister McKee was the best trainer in the world. She was the epitome of patience with me and my obstinance and homesickness. She was there for me and really taught me how to be a missionary by forgetting myself and loving the people that I would serve.

Sister Egbert...I am pretty sure that I prayed this wonderful Sister to me! I was so nervous with my trainer leaving me and about who my next companion would be. I just prayed that I would have someone that I could talk to. If anyone is good at talking with people it is Sister Egbert! We had so much fun together and she taught me so much the importance of being yourself as a missionary! 

Sister Richards, my AMAZINGLY talented Violin playing companion. God put us together just in time for the Holidays. Those holidays became holy days to me as we testified of The Saviors' birth together through music and scripture. She was so fun and loving and was patient with my transition from my first area to my second. She taught me so much about diligence and helping others according to their needs.

Sister Hill!!! She is Stellar! When I got the call that I would be training a new missionary I was so nervous! I shouldn't have been because Sister Hill came already an awesome missionary. Such faith and boldness right off the bat! She hit the ground running and took me along with her. She taught me that I can trust in the Lord and He will make miracles happen!

There was no one happier than Sister McBride and I at the transfer when we became companions! We were already friends from serving by each other in a previous zone and being companions simply strengthened that friendship. Sister McBride's example really taught me about being faithful to the testimony that I have. 

Sister Christensen was fun! How grateful I am for all the things that I learned during our time together. It can be so easy to get stuck into a routine of how we do missionary work and Sister Christensen really taught me to have fun with missionary work. 

Trio round two! two areas, two zones, two companions! Two was definitely my lucky number when I was with Sister Wright and Sister Mitchell. Sister Wright is so sweet and cares so much about the wellbeing of others, especially her companions. She taught me the importance of creativity in missionary work!

Sister Mitchell and I were so sad when we lost Sister Wright to Leesburg...But we persevered and enjoyed every minute we had together, through car trouble and regular missionary work problems, we still managed to work hard in accomplishing our purpose. I learned so much from Sister Mitchell the importance of standing up for what you believe in.

Sister Cordner is so bold. For only being together 5 weeks I learned so much from Sister Cordner about real intent, doing whatever the Lord asks of us, even if it isn't in the plans that we have made for ourselves. 

Sister Adair has red hair and lives up to it! She is a fireball of energy and always on the go! She really understands the purpose of missionary work to help others to come unto Christ and wherever she goes you will always see her helping others. 

Sister Eddy is always ready! Ready to teach others and help them feel the spirit. She has been so helpful to me in enduring to the end of my mission. She always has good ideas and learns so much and teaches what she learns to me and to everybody else. I love how Sister Eddy doesn't beat around the bush when it comes to important things and teaches me to do the same.

God has really blessed me over the course of my mission. God often blesses us through other people and uses us to bless the lives of others. Who has been a blessing in your life and how can you be a blessing in someone elses life today?

Merry Christmas!

What does the birth of Christ mean to me?

In our relief society lesson sister Eddy and I were asked to participate in our "Christmas in Zarahemla" program. After reading a section of scripture from the Book of Mormon regarding the time of Christ's birth we were to respond to the question, "what does the birth of Christ mean to you?" 

What a question! There are so many ways you can answer that! Many different things came to mind but what my mind was always drawn back to was the word 'light'. 

Jesus Christ is the light of the world. He is the light that we are supposed to hold up. It is the light of Christ that all are given, that tells us what is good and right and true. When He came into the world light is what heralded him in. Light from a new star that led the wise men to him, light so bright that it was as if there was no night between two days on the American continent. Light around the Angels and the shepherds. Light in the hearts of the nephite believers who were about to be put to death because of their belief that the Messiah would come.  

Is it any wonder that we put lights up everywhere at this time of year? Lights on trees, on houses, in windows and, at my house, in milk jugs. These lights push back the dark and coldness of winter at least a little bit and remind us of Jesus Christ and the light and hope that he brings into our lives. 

I don't like physical darkness, I wish that the sun could stay up all day. I really don't like spiritual darkness. Darkness that comes from Sin and temptation, but I am so grateful for the light that casts out spiritual darkness that comes from Jesus Christ and repentance and partaking of the sacrament. The light that comes from Christ will always be available. We can always have access to it. It is the light that keeps me going even when things in my life seem dark. I know that I can come unto Christ and receive of his light and never be in darkness.

During this Christmas, I invite you to think about your own answer to the question, 'What does the birth of Christ mean to you?' And share it with someone else. I know that as you do, the spirit of Christmas will enter into your heart more abundantly.